One of Those Nights You Don’t Want Facebook to Know About.

Despite near social media perfection, there are moments when Facebook bites you in the ass. When you catch her posting pictures you don’t need on your profile.  When your significant other gets pissed because you fail to list him or her under your “relationship status.” There’s no escaping it. Even if you’re not signed up to Facebook, you’re on Facebook. You’re in a picture somewhere, untagged. People have commented on you, attempted to tag you, and perhaps clicked through your photos at bar time with no pants on. You just don’t know.

A year or so back, Facebook released an application that allowed users to see who was viewing their profile and how often; a “stalker tracker” so to speak. Many of my friends, myself included, opted to refrain from downloading this tracker. When I asked my girlfriend at the time why she chose to deny the tracker, she said “It’s the feeling that someone is watching you sleep, and you cant ever escape that feeling, even when you’re awake.” The world is watching; parents, friends, acquaintances, hackers, masturbators. There will always be filters, but their effectiveness is trivial. Partying in the presence of cameras can now cost a man his job. We hope the Facebook hack in HR Recruitment will forgive the occasional whisky coke.

In a small, wood-lacquered dive bar in Bangkok, Thailand, people are picking their faces up from the floor. The celebration has hit them with force. British promoters “Popscene” are putting on a folk/rock show featuring artists from the UK, South Africa, and the USA. I am supposed to represent America, and I would do this without a single person yelling “Freebird!” Thank Buddha. The beer buzz of the room builds toward the end of the set as I try to incorporate some louder, shoe stompin’ tunes, working to combat the cluttered noise in the crowded venue.  The show goes swimmingly. Hugs are shared. Beers are cheered. Patrons toast in three different languages, “Cheers! Chiyo! Salud!” I wind up my guitar cords. The DJ starts spinning.  

My old friends Lawrence & the Machine happened to be in town. A four pack of road-worn Brits that could drain a pitcher in a New York minute.  They would be the tone setters for the evening, bringing the shameless sweat and grime necessary to take us to a parallel universe of outrageous nightlife. The best part was, The Machine brought their cameras to document potentially hazardous Facebook material.

For some reason there were cameras everywhere. A flash would go off every minute capturing some sloppy moment in smoke and swill. People spilling drinks, kissing, posing droopy eyed with big grins. It’s pictures like these that always get to Facebook before you can, pictures tagged too fast for comfort. Pictures that HR people see and form unjust opinions on. But now is not the time to worry about that. “Let’s get incredible!”, someone yelled through the foggy room.

The debauchery ensues with Iggy Pop shaking the half blown speakers. Smoke rings chain up the air. A pint glass shatters on the floor near my shoe. Gin and Tonic’s look like Kryptonite lanterns illuminated under blacklights like some twisted disco.  If there was a song to describe the moment it was “Don’t Fear the Reaper”, and we all needed more cowbell.

It was as if these people hadn’t been out of their homes in weeks, saving their energy for some legendary party prophesized from the sky. A well-respected local art teacher named Kate Kassidy rolls cherry cigarettes the size of Snoop Dogg’s ring finger. Punk-rocker dude Wilson Matthews is chugging mercilessly on a liter of local beer, eyes void of all sanity. A gangly South African expat known only as “The Steve” lies passed out on the sidewalk outside the bar. We wake him up and put him in the cab to go to Wong’s Place Pub, a skeezy late night joint in Bangkok.

Wong’s place had recently been featured on the city news, making it the most happening bar in the latter hours. It is also a hot spot for drag-queens and various alternative lifestyles, a selling point for tourists looking to see some crazy shit.

“Wow this place looks really Chinese”, I said as we opened the oriental brown doors. “Have you ever been to China?”, asks a smug, eavesdropping hipster to my left.  I have never been to China. But I have seen Rush Hour 2. One thing was certain; I was not cool enough to be here.

Mr. Wong himself is notorious for being difficult. Jumbo-thick glasses. Mean stone-face. Motley Crue mullet. He stands on the bar with a microphone, making sure everyone is purchasing drinks at a steady pace and yelling at those who don’t. “Pay now. Pay for that beer!” Wong struggles to keep control of the huddled mass, shouting through the karaoke speakers thumb-tacked to the wall. Despite running the biggest party joint in Bangkok, Wong hates to party.

I walk in the bar with a bottle of water 1/3 full. Mr. Wong snatches it out of my hand. “No carry-ins! I owner. You buy new water,” pointing to a fridge full of beer. Too full on beer to drink more beer, I purchase a $2 water from Wong. “No, you buy more. Must buy drink,” says old man Wong, looking more like Kim Jung Ill than I had originally noticed.

“Can I have a moment to decide Mr. Wong?”, I reason. “No. Buy now”, Wong says. I proceed to ask Wong for obscure drinks like aloe vera juice and organic apple cider, stuff I thought he wouldn’t have. Waste his time a bit. But by some act of the orchard-farming Gods, Wong had organic apple cider. “Damnit,” I thought out loud. “You pay now!”, he repeats twice more, as if I just killed his dog or something.

Wong took advantage of Bangkok’s lack of fire code, jamming the room beyond a visible inch of floor space. Cramped and soggy with sweat, I walk outside, slamming  water in the alleyway to shake the fog from my thoughts. Refreshed. Time to rally. I attempt to go back inside to meet up with friends Kassidy, Wilson, and The Steve, but Wong won’t let me back in. To Wong, I had failed to purchase enough alcohol to make my presence of any value. Wongzo the Grouch points me in the other direction. Defeated, I follow his finger. Mankind has seen hundreds and thousands of people get kicked out of bars for being too drunk, but never have I seen a man removed for not being drunk enough. Perhaps Wong is right just this once. Perhaps I need to learn how to party. I’m going to bed.

The next day Facebook would release the documentary of the evening from four cameras present on the scene September 17, 2011. The catalogues of photos are remarkably crusty and unrefined. Here are a few accounts of the camera…

• 1)   Conservative looking expat passed out face down on the sidewalk.
• 2)  Innocent schoolgirl smoking what appears to be a George W. Koosh cone joint.
• 3)   Goateed Thai man doing karate.
• 4)   White girl rubbing the Buddha belly of an overweight customer.
• 5)   British guy folding his arms over his crotch, giving a WWF “suck it” gesture with determination. 

I spent hours grazing these albums on Facebook; couldn’t look away. While Facebook may not be the greatest use of time, it is easily the greatest way to waste time. We hope HR Recruitment will forgive the whisky coke, plummeting of pride, and prominent rise to shame. And if they don’t, well, sorry for partying. 

Dreaming Big May Have Adverse Side Effects, Light Sleeper Says.

A few months back I received an email. “You’ve shattered my dreams,” the first sentence read. Puzzled and concerned, I read on.

“The reason your blog shattered my dreams is because it’s SO GOOD, and I realized I have no hope of getting this writing opportunity I applied for, sad,” read the email.

As tone is lost in text, I didn’t know whether to feel victory or defeat. It was stirring. My dad sometimes tells me my blog is good, but this was an outside party confirming goodness. In my lifetime I have disappointed persons, I have made persons cry, but I’d never shattered anyone’s dreams before. This was somewhat of a landmark. It was inspiring, and was the first time I’ve ever created hope by simultaneously destroying it. That email still inspires me to keep this blog going.

This reminded me of the second time my dreams were shattered (the first was the full disclosure of Santa Claus). I was 12. We were on a family trip to Los Angeles to visit my Uncle Marcus. At the time, L.A. was home to 3-time NBA champion Shaquille O’neal.  Like many kids, I thought Shaq was the coolest human on the planet. He was funny. He was tall. And obviously, he could ball. Shaq was 7’1’’. I wanted to be 7’1’’ someday. 

We were staying with Uncle Marcus, whose girlfriend had recently been released from an administrative role with the L.A. Lakers.  She still knew the security guard and was able to get us into the Laker’s practice facility parking lot before the team rolled in one morning.

We waited outside the doors with our sharpies and sports memorabilia like hungry puppies waiting to suck the sweet nectar from the teat of championship glory. It was just me and my little brother waiting for Shaq with our parents looking on from a distance. I had recently watched all the subpar films starring Shaquille O’neal (Kazamm, Steel, Blue Chips). I had even wasted $4 of my parents’ money by renting his video game “Shaq Fu” when I already had a far better version of the same game (i.e. Mortal Combat).  I had his rap albums too, and I didn’t care if he sucked at rapping, or free throw shooting.

Regardless of the poor quality of Shaq’s alternative career pursuits, he could do no wrong in the eyes of my 12-year-old head. This was the day I would meet Shaq. Here I stood, on the stoop of my destiny in Los Angeles, California.

Sure enough, all the players came rolling in with souped up Cadillacs and oversized SUV’s. They were all there; Rick Fox, known for his dashing good looks and marriage to actress Vanessa Williams. Horace Grant, known as a legendary role-player to Michael Jordan, and of course Kobe Bryant, known by some as being better than Michael Jordan. Every one of them was friendly, signing our Laker caps and posing for a picture. We met the entire team, minus Shaq. We couldn’t have missed him?

It was 7:59 a.m., just one minute before the start of practice. Still no Shaq. Laker team policy stated that players would be cracked with a fine if they showed up late. It was something like $3,000. It was now 8:01 a.m. Shaq was definitely getting fined if he didn’t show up with a medical excuse from a doctor.

As time passed, my little brother and I began to lose hope. The Big Aristotle was a no show. As we walked to the gates to exit, a humungous Cadillac Escalade came trucking though the security entrance. We dashed back to the player entrance. This was it.

The Cadillac door opened. It was not Shaq, but a short black man in a shiny leather jacket. He looked hard as nails.

“What is this?!” he shouted at the security guard, pissed that two kid superfans would be delaying players’ entry. “They’re friends of the program”, replied the security guard, attempting to cover his own ass for letting us in. Little kid NBA fans were not permitted on the premises.

Turns out this short man was Shaq’s body guard. Another dark silhouette lurked behind the passenger side tinted windows. The door clicked open. Shaq emerged from the passenger side door in a grey jumpsuit similar to those sported by Vanilla Ice in 1990. I was starstruck and scared speechless. I feared Shaq would be pissed for showing up late and getting fined. And he was.

I remember trying not to pee a dribble in my pants as Shaq approached my brother and I. He towered over us, casting a Frankenstein-sized shadow over the parking lot. We were the only thing between him and the door. Just us and our sharpie markers. Shaq’s face was negate of smiles as his body guard bitched out security for letting us in. We shouldn’t be here.

I wanted to ask him questions, like why he let popstar Aaron Carter beat him in a game of one-on-one. How many backboards has he shattered? Did he take kung fu in preparation for Shaq-Fu? I wanted to ask these things, but fear manhandled the muscles around my jaw. This was not the smiley, huggable Shaq of mainstream media. This was behind-the-glory E Hollywood Story Shaq. The Shaq that rapped about thuggin’ and would later freestyle “Kobe How My Ass Taste?” on Youtube. This was the dark side of Shaq that allegedly cheated on his lady, (according to Kobe Bryant.) His giant yellow eyes peered into the bottom of my soul as my inner self said over and over, “Shaq hates me.”

I died a little inside that day, leaving the Laker practice facility feeling a little bad. It was all unnecessary anxiety. I had convinced myself of ruining Shaq’s day and costing him further fines from the Laker franchise. But my 12-year-old heart would later learn to understand that my hero hadn’t let me down, he just hadn’t lived up to my expectations. There was truly a valuable lesson to be taken from this.

Set the bar low. An encounter with Shaquille O’neal had been hyped up in my mind for years. Not to mention a young mind tends to magnify the fantastical element in a small-boy’s thoughts. The bar was simply set way too high, and that garners expectations. Expectations are usually synonymous with crappy things like stress, pressure, and let downs. People don’t go to a Bob Dylan concert expecting him to sound like he does on the old records. The show will have a greater probability of sucking. It sounds pessimistic, but it’s truly just realistic. People shouldn’t order the “Perfect Pushup” from an infomercial and expect to get a Fabio six-pack of abs. But they do.

When you’re little you dream big, and dreaming is dangerous no matter how old you are. From youth, we’re often told “Dream big, dream big. Follow your dreams.” While that’s said with good intentions, it’s the same stuff sold by motivational speakers exploiting mental weakness at three easy payments of $39.95.

“Dream small” may be the way to go. It sounds lazy, but it’s strongly vigilant after all. Shaq didn’t shatter my dreams, I shattered my own humongous, fragile dreams. The night before our encounter, Shaq probably dreamed about walking into practice unbothered, swishing a few free throws and dunking in some fool’s face. That is a small dream, an unshatterable dream that has led to great success.

I don’t want anyone’s dreams to be shattered for anything.  "Dreaming small" might be the answer. You can’t control the dreams in your sleep, but you can control the dreams when you’re awake. They’re powerful and shouldn’t be tampered with. A dream can get Beyonce into your bed, but it can also put Freddy Krueger underneath it. In actuality, almost everybody gets to dream, but almost nobody gets to sleep with Beyonce. Jay Z probably dreams small...and dreams often.

What happened in Vegas stayed there…until now.

August 2009 - Las Vegas, Nevada

According to Hollywood, Las Vegas is a passageway into manhood for the young American male. It’s a key component to college films, roadtrip films, “exiting adolescence” films or some combination of the three. So after watching too many movies, my fellow males and I assembled our most destructive party roster to make the pilgrimage to the sunset strip of swindling, sex, and shame.

Our crew is as follows:

Gerome Peterson: prankster, law student, wise ass

Derrick Yogurt: Undisputed class clown, huggable, hyper caffeinated, no filter

The Gremlin Twins: Short, loud, Napoleon complex(s), Can’t decipher the two

Tommy Clownboy: Red afro, valedictorian, Norm MacDonald attributes, smug bastard

Myself: Tall, gangly, overly-cautious, mediocre beer drinker

The trip had been going pretty standard; killing time at pools by day, killing white Russians by night as the slots gobbled down our nickels. It felt as if the slot machines were laughing in our face. Their hokey flashing lights and disco sounds blurred together in a circus of robot noise. We’d get toasty at the bar, lose $20-100 at the roulette table, and go to Denny’s for grand slams in the foggy a.m. The first three days went this way, replicating each other down to the last PBR tallboy. We were content, but unsatisfied. Nick Papageorgio won four cars in Vegas, why couldn’t we?

The last day came and one thing became clear; it was time to break the lackluster cycle of no hookers and no blow with hookers and blow, or at least something untamed. This is what happens in Vegas movies, and by God one of us would be fear and loathing by the end of the night. Suggestions came in from the crew. Peterson was voting for a strip club. The Gremlin Twins were backing this idea as well. Yogurt is always down for whatever, and Clownboy and I had never been to a strip club, so we were game.

We finish our final white Russian at “Wild Bill’s Casino”, making our way to the strip to be hassled by promoters of various entities involving bare breasts and cover charges. Peterson bargains with a few. The group is apprehensive of getting scammed, and we waste nearly two hours bargaining with the strip club promoters. Before we know it, it’s already 2 a.m., and we must choose the least seedy driver fast.

Peterson makes the call to ride with boob-promoter Jimmy Bone, a 5’3’’ stocky man dressed in sunglasses and a spotless black suit with Bruce Wayne shoulder pads.  He looks like a blend between P. Diddy and Muggsy Bogues. Bone has a wide, strong body with a tiny head. Aviators cover 1/3 of his face while two giant cold sores protrude from his upper lip. He has a Kanye West swagger, but as we would soon find out, lacked the walk to back up the talk.

“Ya’ll muthaf***ers ready to party!? This gonna be the sh**,” yells Jimmy Bone. A snot ball dripped from his nose as he exhaled. He didn’t notice.  

“You kidding me? You went with this crackhead?”, Clownboy questioning Peterson’s decision. “Dude, he said he’d give us a free ride and give us cash toward the cover charge,” replies Peterson.

Peterson was the craftiest man on our team. He once manipulated two of our friends into smoking each other’s pubes, spiking their hand-rolled cigarette on April Fools Day of 09’. The victims still don’t know he was the mastermind, allowing Peterson to escape revenge-free. He was smart and shameless and had gotten us out of jams before. Peterson would catch Bone before he put anything up his sleeve. Putting our trust in Peterson would prove to be the best (or worst) decision of the trip, depending on how you looked at it.

It was all part of a night’s work for Jimmy Bone, skeezing the Vegas strip for drunk twenty something’s looking to take their night to the next level. He has succeeded, for now.

Bone thought of himself as a hustler, and he was indeed a lousy one. He was sketchy, but exciting. He rambled his pimp stories at loud volumes with little disregard for eavesdropping patrons in the Vegas strip.

“Man. Ya’ll don’t even want to know how many chicks I been with. You rollin’ with the right dude.”

His stories were entertaining but exaggerated. At the time I believed they were at least partially true, as he had the cold sores to prove it. Bone was a guy good in small doses. He was stoked at the commission he’d receive from the strip club by bringing in six dudes. We were piled in a black SUV, barely fitting inside. Bone piled in after us, landing on my right leg and cracking open a pocket-sized whiskey bottle in celebratory fashion. 

“Pay day today! I’m making bank”, boasted Bone. “For every one a ya’ll muthaf***ers I get in that door, the club gives me $25. I be killing this. Ladies be wantin’ my sh** tonight!”

Bone is drunk on the job and out of his element, leaking all the details of his operation. He explains his career hustling the streets for strip clubs who pay him on each person he gets through the door. Spit fires off his lips as he rants a bunch of slurred syllables. All I could make out was “know what I’m saying?”

The SUV’s driver, referred to simply as “Menard”, was an older, pudgy man who had been driving in silence until confidential info started spewing from Jimmy Bone’s mouth.

“Man, shut the fu** up!”, says Menard, trying to protect the formula of their operation as if they were unveiling the Da Vinca code.

We finally arrive at the club two miles off the Vegas strip in the red light district. Bone unfolds a handful of money, putting $180 cash into our grubby little mits. This would cover the $30 cover charge Bone had been talking about.  “Get some!”, yells Bone as he watches the six of us enter the club. Stoked on the thought of commission, he takes another pull of whiskey as the doors close behind us.

Peterson hangs onto our $180 in cash as we wait in a long line just inside the doors of the club. An oversized bouncer, roughly resembling ex-NBA center Alonzo Mourning, takes cash at the entrance. Rainbow strobe lights stroke the dark ceilings. Old school Chili Peppers bump from the surround sound. The place is classy, but doesn’t make the clientele look any less creepy. We probably look creepy too.

It’s now after 4 a.m. The line is not budging due to a capacity club. The club closes at 5 a.m. Our group has grown tired, no longer enthralled by the thoughts of G-strings and sticky chairs. The buzz is wearing off, and going home to pass out begins to sound more appealing to Peterson, Clownboy, Yogurt, the twins and myself. Suddenly, Clownboy says smugly, “why don’t we just take this money and go home?” It’s hard to tell when Clownboy is kidding. But this time his tone is obvious, as if we should have done this all along. “That’s brilliant. There’s better things to spend this money on,” adds Yogurt. “What about Bone and Menard?” I caution.

I peek outside the front door of the club, Jimmy Bone and Menard are gone. They are figuring we are safe inside the club, face deep in boobage. Clownboy’s plan starts to come together. The club would be closed within an hour regardless. It didn’t make sense to stay.

“The coast is clear. Let’s get the hell out of here.” We scurry out of the club off the radar of the bouncers. The lethargic attitude of our crew was no more, high on the thrill that we were about to hustle a hustler.

It’s 4:30 a.m. We walk down the barren Vegas street among the creatures of the night. A she-male hooker waves from across the street, blowing me a kiss. A Jeff Bridges-looking dude sits propped up against a convenience store, passed out in his own puke. More shady characters approach us, attempting to lure us into their clubs of sin. Our group of six tall white boys stands out like a smelly thumb. “Guys, we need to get off this street. Bone is going to come looking for us,” I say.

The Gremlin twins propose we duck into a 24-hour adult bookstore. Killing time, we browse the shelves of the skunky shop. “Santa’s Ho Ho Ho’s” and “Good Assternoon” top the best sellers shelf.  Hiding inside the dildo-coated walls for about 20 minutes, our team proceeds its journey home. Hiking a Vegas side-street at 5 a.m., I begin to feel uneasy. We are being followed.

“Dat’s dem!” We hear a shrilling scream from across the street. Jimmy Bone’s SUV comes to a screeching halt from the other side of the road. Bone jumps out of the SUV pointing and running at us, nearly being smashed by an oncoming car. The strip club had called Bone and informed him that we never entered.

“Ya’ll muthafuckas best gimme my money,” screams Bone. “That’s hundred eighty muhf***in’ dollars”. Bone is off his hinges, shrieking in fits of rage. “Gimme da money!”.

“No,” says Clownboy sternly. Fearing a stabbing, a few of us urge Peterson to hand over the cash. Peterson and Clownboy stand firm, convinced that Bone had ripped us off by charging us for a cab ride only to drop us at a strip-club 30 minutes before closing time. The Gremlin Twins walk off in apprehension, leaving Peterson, Clownboy, Yogurt and myself to tend to the situation.

“This is bullshit! Ya’ll can’t play me like dis.”

Bone is screaming at the top of his lungs, causing a huge scene. A crowd begins to take notice. The minutes pass like hours as the four of us watch the circus unfolding before our eyes.

“Ya’ll stop actin’ a fool and hand it over.” Bone is nearly in tears. Driver Menard says nothing, clearly embarrassed. The standoff continues.

“I’m gonna call the Police!”, Bone says as whips out his cell phone.

“Go ahead, call the Police,” dares Clownboy. “Who are the cops going to side with? A cracked out pimp hustler…or us?” The apprehension is killing me. Every threat proposed by Bone is shot down by Clownboy’s shear strength of will. I’m shaking in my shoes, while Clownboy emits a shit-eating grin right in Bone’s sweaty face.

Bone knows he’s been had. His side of the story would look like a scam to the cops, and Peterson would make sure of it. Still, Bone continues the threats with cell phone in hand, but fails to call the Police. We get the feeling he had been down to the station before. And then the most astonishing thing happened.

“Ahhhhhhh!” shrieks Jimmy Bone as he smashes his cell phone onto the sidewalk with kryptonite force. The phone shatters in three pieces. The battery flies out to the middle of the road. Menard urges Bone to “calm the fu** down.” Now feeling physically threatened, Yogurt and I are demanding Peterson hands over the cash. Clownboy and Peterson look at each other. They nod. It’s time to fold our hand.

Peterson hands over the money. Bone grabs the cash in desperation and relief. Menard grabs Bone by the arm and walks him to the SUV where they drive off.  Disappointed in the outcome, the four of us continue our walk back to the strip. A car pulls up behind us. It’s the cops.

“Excuse me gentlemen. Could you step over here please,” says one of the officers. We let Peterson do the talking. While he has no criminal record whatsoever, he has the most experience talking to the police after a few bar scuffles back home. “Yes. Not a problem officer,” replies Peterson. The four of us approach the cop car.

“We received some phone calls regarding loud shouting back by the convenience store. Seems there might be a problem,” says the officer. “Can you tell me what’s going on?”

“Certainly. This drunk guy tried to get us to come with him to a club. I think he was trying to scam us”, says Peterson assertively. The officer looks confused.

“I see. Is that all that happened?”

“No. When we got to the club, it was about to close. He demanded we go in and pay the cover. When we wouldn’t go into the club the guy freaked out and started screaming at us. I think he was on drugs,” says Peterson.  

Tension ensues. The officer pauses, thinks to himself, then responds.

“I see. You need to be careful with some of these characters. They try to scam tourists all the time. There’s no doubt this guy was trying to rip you off,” says the officer. “Be sure to watch out for this kind of thing..”

“Yes sir,” says Peterson and Clownboy simultaneously.

“What did this guy look like and which way did this guy go?” asks the officer. Peterson gives a description while pointing in the direction of the club. The officer nodded. “Thank you gentlemen. You’ve been great help. We’ll track him down. Have a good night.”

The four of us head for home. Yogurt hugs Peterson out of adrenaline and relief. Then something tremendous happened. Peterson stopped, grinned, and reached into his pocket, pulling out $40 in cash which he had kept separate from the rest of Bone’s stash. Jimmy Bone was in such a fit of rage he didn’t bother to count the money. We took that $40 straight to the roulette wheel and put it on red. And red it was. And we went straight to Denny’s.